Am I a engineer now?

It was during my holidays after my Matriculation examination at my Uncles house in Pollachi. Me and priya, my cousin were talking about what we ought to do after 10th. We both had written our exams and were relieved for the next two and half months.
My brother was already a engineer and had left for his MS that year. Priya`s brother was preparing to become one. We were left with limited choice from our parents- to become a engineer or a doctor. Thank god there was not a charted accountant in the family.

I said " I have done really well in Biology,might even score the full marks. I would become a doctor" . Those were the times when Imran Khan was famous for opening his cancer institute in Pakistan. He was not my idol but..... I had heard so much of this killer disease that I wanted to be a doctor ......a cancer specialist. I had heard from mother that Thatha(my grandfather) had died of cancer. My mother still does`nt know if it was cancer. Then there were no scanning machine or other techniques to diagonise cancer.

This was in 1996-summer holidays. I was thinking of being a cancer specialist. Little did i then know that I would see the disease consume my father`s healthy body after few years.

After doing all the thinking and boosted by a really awesome score in my matriculation examination I took Maths,physics,chemistry and Biology. I choose Biology for my big dream and maths for my brother. Moreover people said it would give me more choice - incase i fail in one i would have another for backup. I was thinking of failure even before stepping into the course.

My brother had his dreams - of joining IIT, he really tried hard but did`nt make it. He made to a lot of other good institutes. He made me enroll with Brilliant tutorials which my father could`nt afford for my brother,unlucky raju !! My brother wanted Me to go to IIT atleast. Llittle did he know that i was`nt half as hardworking as he was.

I was going to the classes and writing tests till my 11th. Then other activities in school took over and Rs 4320/- spent on brilliant tutorials my IIT JEE coaching went in drain.
As I came close to the final practice tests I found that i couldn`t put those hours of hard work reading Biology. Not that i did n`t like the subject. Biology as a subject still fascinates me but I knew i was not made for becoming a doctor. The profession needs so much of hardwork and dedication like none other profession. Now i knew how important it was for me to choose both Biology and Maths. And for someone like me who has never been sure of what I did the choice was a really sensible thing to do.

I just started concentrating on the three subjects that would finally get me the admission into a good engineering college(REC Trichy). My brother was really surprised with the result. Even now three years after college he asks me how i managed those marks.

I was setting myself for a career in medicine and I landed in a engineering college. 4 years of REC was the best thing to happen. Not because I came out with flying colours studying engineering but the time spent I feel was the best I had. I think not only me but many in my batch would endorse those 4 years to be the best. I had really nice people all along those years in trichy.

all i am now is because of the 4 years of college and the experience that followed. so has engineering made me think differently ? difficult question to answer !!! I still don`t know if i was suited for engineering...being a 2002 passout still i can`t answer how good i am at engineering.
.... i am really searching for the career that I would love and cherish doing...